I might be over the hill.
After making the decision to answer God’s calling on my life and head into full-time ministry, I started having a tough time fully grasping that the best years of my career are ahead.
For the last decade, I had built a strong reputation in the digital advertising industry. Colleagues respected me, clients enjoyed me, employees liked my training. I was asked to speak at seminars, colleges and networking events. I was driving revenue and evolving my long-term vision for the company. I was wrapping up 10 consecutive years of increased income. I had another couple decades of strong growth, increased earnings and advancement ahead. And I was leaving it behind.
I would be starting completely over. I would be entering a new job with no formal training. I would have peers with Master’s degrees and doctoral degrees and tons of practical experience. I would have the least amount of seminary education on staff. It would take me another decade to feel caught up, let alone ahead of the curve (where I try to be).
Sports, technology and entertainment have done a great job of skewing everything for us average joes. LeBron James was drafted at 18 and became an overnight millionaire with contracts and endorsements. Daniel Radcliffe’s popularity and frequency on magazine covers exploded when he took the role of Harry Potter at age 12. Tech moguls are even more ridiculous – I think Zuckerberg created Facebook when he was just a fetus.
With all the hype surrounding these young entrepreneurs, actors and entertainers, you don’t often hear about people making an impact at a later age. In the NFL, teams start casting aside their players when they hit 30. If I were a professional athlete (wishful thinking) at this stage in my athletic life, I’d be considered washed up as a running back, on the decline as an outfielder and over the hill as a small forward.
As someone who was about to make a career change, I started struggling and doubting the impact I would really have. My Christian education is way behind. I’m starting seminary. In my head, every student around me will have full books of the Bible memorized, know the full lineage of Christ and be profound ecclesiological thinkers. I’m guessing (hoping) that’s not the case, but it certainly feels like I’m about to be parachuted right in to some astrophysics class.
I believe that the answers to our questions are contained within the pages of Scripture, so that’s where I turned for clarity and reassurance. Luke 3:23 tells us that Jesus’ ministry really didn’t start until he was in his early 30s (it helps when you are the firstborn Son of God, too). Moses and Aaron were each in their 80s when God called them to speak to Pharaoh and lead people out of Egypt. Peter served as the Rock in the church during the second half of his life. God has a way of using people wherever they are for his glory. God has knack of keeping us in check, for the good or for discipline.
I recently had the privilege of hearing a new friend and pastor preach. He talked about his favorite two words in the Bible – ‘But God.’
Conjunction junction, what’s your function? The function of ‘but’ is used to introduce something contrasting with what has already been mentioned. ‘But God,’ is a phrase that offers hope, redemption, peace and life.
Acts 13:29-30 says, “When they had carried out all that was written about him (Jesus), they took him down from the tree and laid him in a tomb. But God raised him from the dead.”
Sin had seemingly crushed the Son of Man, but God gave us hope!
Romans 5:7-8 says, “Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Aside from maybe our families, most people won’t lay down their life for someone else. But God sacrificed his son for all, even while we were acting against him.
I was questioning myself and assessing my inadequacy, But God had other plans.
Simultaneously, while I was going through the process of sorting out my future in ministry, our church in SC was already praying about how they could bring us home. My wife and I helped start our Acts 1:8 missions team several years earlier and continued to be a committee run by lay leaders. But, our church had continued to be faithful to missions both physically by going and financially through giving. Our activities and partnerships had grown so much that it became more than the lay lead committee and a portion of a pastor’s time could handle. The time had come to add a full-time missions pastor.
That’s when I got the call.
I was in North Carolina leading seminars that taught advertisers how to effectively use digital marketing for their businesses and also going on four-legged sales calls with the local team.
“When are you gonna be around these parts again?” our executive pastor asked. I was in a town 45-minutes from our home church and about 20-minutes across the border in North Carolina. I told him I was nearby and we agreed to meet for dinner at an Outback Steakhouse (apparently all my life-changing religious events happen at restaurants.)
Throughout the next day, I kept getting text messages from the executive pastor. He had a busy day of counseling and our dinner appointment kept getting moved later and later. I figured if he needed to move it again, it might not happen at all.
“Do you think this is ‘the talk’?” my wife asked. “I sure hope so,” I replied. We had been praying regularly that one day we would have the opportunity to be on staff at our church, but this seemed so unreal and unlikely that it would happen so fast.
The time finally came for us to meet.
“So, you guys still want to be in ministry one day, huh?” he said.
“Definitely,” I replied. “We’re just trying to be obedient and available whenever and wherever God wants us to serve.”
Hearing the questions and seeing the huge smile on my friend’s face, I could easily see where the conversation was headed. I answered a few more questions about our direction, family support and willingness to leave behind a fantastic job.
“Well, we’re ready to have a missions pastor and we’d like it to be you.”
That was the best steak dinner I’ve ever had.
That one statement, that one conversation, that one offer made everything that had gone on over the last 18 months, the last five years, even the last 32 years make perfect sense. It was the ultimate But God experience. I was starting to question the timing and my ability to benefit a church, but God showed me a church body that was praying for me and wanted me to come serve them just as I was. They knew I didn’t have any seminary training yet. They knew I had only been involved with missions for a handful of years, but they wanted me anyway.
It’s the same way with God. He knows we aren’t perfect. He knows all our faults. He knows our sin. But, he wants us anyway.
The dinner conversation with the executive pastor was wonderful, but not nearly as beautiful as the one I was about to have with my wife.